In 20 Years

 20 years from now when I look back on my life I want to remember my childhood. I want to remember how much I loved the weekends I was at my mums and always dreaded my dads (only to show in comparison how much I loved and adored my mum). I want to remember my group of friends, the girls I could really be myself with, laugh with, just have a great time. I want to remember the people who shaped and influenced me; teachers, students, even people from the internet and past history. I want to remember how much I loved Dora the Explorer and how my mum dressed me up exactly like her for my 5th birthday. I want to remember how much my grandparents loved me, because god it was a lot. I want to remember everything I went through, positive and negative. I want to remember all the hateful girlfriends my dad went through, and how through everything we were always as close as can be. I want to remember the moment that I stopped going to my dads house for good, because the way his new family made me feel. I want to remember that It wasn't my fault, and my dad always tried his hardest for me to understand this, and how he still always made the effort to see me. I want to remember all the fabulous times I had with my mum, when we weren't fighting. I want to remember how she was always my rock regarding everything, and how when I had my first heartbreak she held me in her arms and let me cry and cry an ocean of tears until I couldn't breathe and she reminded me everything would be okay. She is the reason you are the women you are today. I want to remember the loves of my life; the boys and the girls. Although they may be different kinds of love they are just as powerful and meaningful as each other. The greatest blessings and/or lessons of my life. I want to remember what it felt like finishing high school, the accomplishment, the pride, the sadness, the loss, the gain. I want to remember the music I loved and artists who influenced me into becoming who I am. I want to remember the passion and ambition that lay locked and bulging trying to find a way out of my chest as I lay on my bed in my room staring at Audrey Hepburn on my wall. I want to remember how it felt when all I wanted to do was get out into the world and live my dreams, finally prove just how successful I've always meant to be. I want to make myself proud when I look back in 20 years.