In 20 Years

 20 years from now when I look back on my life I want to remember my childhood. I want to remember how much I loved the weekends I was at my mums and always dreaded my dads (only to show in comparison how much I loved and adored my mum). I want to remember my group of friends, the girls I could really be myself with, laugh with, just have a great time. I want to remember the people who shaped and influenced me; teachers, students, even people from the internet and past history. I want to remember how much I loved Dora the Explorer and how my mum dressed me up exactly like her for my 5th birthday. I want to remember how much my grandparents loved me, because god it was a lot. I want to remember everything I went through, positive and negative. I want to remember all the hateful girlfriends my dad went through, and how through everything we were always as close as can be. I want to remember the moment that I stopped going to my dads house for good, because the way his new family made me feel. I want to remember that It wasn't my fault, and my dad always tried his hardest for me to understand this, and how he still always made the effort to see me. I want to remember all the fabulous times I had with my mum, when we weren't fighting. I want to remember how she was always my rock regarding everything, and how when I had my first heartbreak she held me in her arms and let me cry and cry an ocean of tears until I couldn't breathe and she reminded me everything would be okay. She is the reason you are the women you are today. I want to remember the loves of my life; the boys and the girls. Although they may be different kinds of love they are just as powerful and meaningful as each other. The greatest blessings and/or lessons of my life. I want to remember what it felt like finishing high school, the accomplishment, the pride, the sadness, the loss, the gain. I want to remember the music I loved and artists who influenced me into becoming who I am. I want to remember the passion and ambition that lay locked and bulging trying to find a way out of my chest as I lay on my bed in my room staring at Audrey Hepburn on my wall. I want to remember how it felt when all I wanted to do was get out into the world and live my dreams, finally prove just how successful I've always meant to be. I want to make myself proud when I look back in 20 years. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Hello my loves!

So here we are, 2015! I hope you all had a great Christmas and New Years with your friends, family and loved ones, I know I did! For New Years I actually went camping with my bestfriends and our whole year level from our school and schools in our city, which was amazing to say the least - and I'm never drinking alcohol again.

I just wanted to take a moment to comprehend that we are actually in the start of a New Year because to me it's such a crazy thought?! And as sad as I am to say goodbye to 2014 as it was the best year of my existence (so far) I am so ecstatic because 2015 is my year. This year is my last and final year of high school and it feels like I've been waiting an eternity for this moment! It's going to be such a roller coaster of a year, and finally my future is coming to life! I'm do excited to start pursuing my dreams and doing what I love!

So here's to a great year my loves I wish you all the best, and I will keep you updated along the way! 

Love always,

C

Everything you want is coming...

“Everything you want is coming. Relax and let the universe pick up the timing and the way. You just need to trust that what you want is coming, and watch how fast it comes.” 

Everything you want is coming, to me this is one of the most enlightening and motivating quote for me personally and I believe everyone can relate to it too in some way. All the hard work you are putting into something or maybe the goals you are giving your all to achieve, it's all coming, and this quote is just that little reminder in your day that it's happening. This was the highlight of my day today reading this because it made me exceptionally happy.

Love always

C

What I think feminism is | Real Talk

Hi my loves,

Today I wanted to share something with you that is close to my heart and may be to many of you too. It's the idea of feminism and not the idea which is exposed through the media as this angry burn-your-bra-in-anger kind of way, I think it's much simpler than that. I was on Tumblr today whilst procrastinating when I should be study for my exam tomorrow, and I came across this quote and it hit me, this is feminism. This is what it is to be a women in a simple explanation, so I want to share it with you. 

"“I am the girl who prefers to spend her Friday night curled up with her pillow, reading a good novel, and I am also the girl who likes to go out on a Saturday night and dance until the DJ plays his last song. I am the girl who wants to wear beat up converses and an oversized sweatshirt, and I am also the girl who owns over sixty dresses and too many shoes to count. Why did it become okay to say one is better than the other? Because I am all of that." 

I think what I love about this quote is that as women we don't have to be defined as one thing, like a tick in a box, which describes who we are. I think that we are an assortment of different emotions and wants and needs which can change daily, so we can't be defined by one word or explanation. I like the idea that also, your not always what people expect you to be. I mean you can change completely from the perspective people see you as one day from the next and as people we are constantly evolving. Also the idea that it mainly focuses on women in this quote I believe is important! Don't let society define you my loves. Be who you want and who you truly are.

I hope you all have an amazing rest of the week and a great weekend! 

Love always

Court 

21 things you need to remember now & then |

1. You are stronger than you realise.

2. You are crueller than you realise.

3. The smallest words will break your heart.

4. You will change. You’re not the same person you were three years ago. You’re not even the same person you were three minutes ago and that’s okay. Especially if you don’t like the person you were three minutes ago.

5. People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires.

6. You won’t like your name until you hear someone say it in their sleep.

7. You’ll forget your email password but ten years from now you’ll still remember the number of steps up to his flat.

8. You don’t have to open the curtains if you don’t want to.

9. Never stop yourself texting someone. If you love them at 4 a.m., tell them. If you still love them at 9.30 a.m., tell them again.

10. Make sure you have a safe place. Whether it’s the kitchen floor or the Travel section of a bookshop, just make sure you have a safe place.

11. You will be scared of all kinds of things, of spiders and clowns and eating alone, but your biggest fear will be that people will see you the way you see yourself.

12. Sometimes, looking at someone will be like looking into the sun. Sometimes someone will look at you like you are the sun. Wait for it.

13. You will learn how to sleep alone, how to avoid the cold corners but still fill a bed.

14. Always be friends with the broken people. They know how to survive.

15. You can love someone and hate them, all at once. You can miss them so much you ache but still ignore your phone when they call.

16. You are good at something, whether it’s making someone laugh or remembering their birthday. Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these things don’t matter.

17. You will always be hungry for love. Always. Even when someone is asleep next to you you’ll envy the pillow touching their cheek and the sheet hiding their skin.

18. Loneliness is nothing to do with how many people are around you but how many of them understand you.

19. People say I love you all the time. Even when they say, ‘Why didn’t you call me back?’ or ‘He’s an asshole.’ Make sure you’re listening.

You will be okay.

20. You will be okay.

21. You will be okay. 

MAC Darkside | Beauty

Hi my loves,

Today I thought id share with you probably one of my all time favourite lipsticks - ofcourse it's Mac. This beautiful dark red-almost-purple shade is called Darkside and is the most beautiful winter colour (or in my case all year round!) and I'm absolutely obsessed with it and will forever have it with me in my handbag. 

If you've never really dwelled into the world of deep and dark lipsticks yet then this could just be the start for you, I urge you all to go try it on and perhaps purchase it for yourselves! You will not regret it,

Much love always

C

XO 

Tumblr

Hello my love(s)! 

Long time no talk and I mean a long time! We are now into the month of November as incorrect and strange that seems to me to say through text it's the truth. It's slowly dwelling on me, the thought that we are almost at the end of yet another year. My sixteenth year! Today I wanted to share with you something that is quite personal and close to my heart, Tumblr. Now some of you may or may not be aware (if you are over the age of existence) what Tumblr is. Basically it's a site where you can post and reblog pictures from others which catch your eye perhaps. 

Now unless you yourself have a Tumblr it may seem pointless or confusing to you, but once you've been on the site over two years you develop a somewhat close relationship with it. It's always there for you, whether it be the app on your phone or the desktop on your computer. It's therapeutic and it's inspiring. Not only is it filled with fashion and beauty but it's filled with quotes and literature that teach you the basics of life (not kidding!). If I could have a job sitting at home on my laptop reblogging pictures allday for a living, I would, hand on heart. This site makes me so happy I can't describe it, don't get me started on the outfit envy - this site basically sprouted my love for designer clothes and all inbetween. I will now show you some examples of the beauty that exists within this website: please note these are not my pictures - I just found these and whoever they belong to I love you for sharing! 

(OUTFIT ENVY!!!)

It's an expression of art and pop culture and I just love every single aspect of it. I hope you took some inspiration or happiness out of this blog, let me know if you decide to join the wonderful Tumblr world! 

Love;

C xxoo